Suicidal ideology vs Suicide

Suicidal ideology is seeming more like a coping mechanism for the uncontrollable pain that runs rampant in a person when life is out of control. Cutting is a form of trying to regain control of what couldn't be controlled.

Suicide gets called an selfish act...

But no one understands the relief that was sought after behind the act of agony; it's an individual performing a mercy kill for themselves, like a person would put a wounded animal out of their misery with a swift death.

The act was the last resort....and the thoughts were just mental relief for the pain temporarily. 

An Apology

道歉是这世上最没用的忏悔。 除了能让你自己好过，根本毫无用处。尤其在你伤害了别人以后。 办错了事就得赎罪。 我情愿上刀山，下火海，但我这辈子绝不对任何人说对不起。绝不 。(皓镧传Beauty Hao Lan ep16)

Anime: Mahou

To value oneself so little, as though one were disposable, is to say that those of us they've saved are just as worthless.

Oh, right, you should be quick to say what you wish to say or hear. Some words ripen with age, but some also lose their color.

-Nevin
Ep 12

Relationship Basics

Everyone was taught how to love differently. And they desire to be loved in a particular way.
It's like giving someone your favorite food, but it's a food they dislike or hate; so it won't have the same effect as giving them something they would love.

For anyone to believe in what you say, it requires faith
When you give the impression that you will do something, it's already a promise...
It doesn't matter how big or small the issue is... When you break that promise - trust is broken.

"Hope is undiscovered disappointment."
"Hope is paralyzing..."

With enough disappointments and hurt, anyone can fall out of love with You.

Sense 8

Hope is undiscovered disappointment.

Hope is Dangerous

I don't want her living off hope.

There are worse things than hope.

You're wrong.
Bad news stops us for a while but then you move on.

Hope is paralyzing ...

S4ep25 of Criminal Minds

...

F: It takes something out of me, too. The scary thing is sometimes I don't even notice it till long after its gone.

Rossi: You know this job ain't all milk and honey.
Some days you lose. Some days you do things you don't want to do. So ask yourself this:

Where can you do the most good and still do yourself the least harm? Then make your decision.

S11ep6 of Criminal Minds

From: Being Mary Jane (TV Show)

Let go of what you think is supposed to happen

And just let it be...

Being Mary Jane

Season 4 ep3

You gotta stay ready so you don't have to get ready

Season 4 ep8