独孤天下 / The Legend Of Dugu

TV SHOW:    《独孤天下》

般若教伽羅和曼陀

「記得， 女人最大的利器，是男人的不忍心」

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真正爱你的男人，会宠着你，对你的小脾气也会耐心的忍受，耐心的哄你开心，逗你笑！

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Story of my life lol 😅🤣

有些女人谈恋爱不是找了个男朋友，而是找了个儿子，男人不是找了个女朋友，而是找了第二个妈，两人根本不是恋爱关系，变成了“母子关系”。其实真正爱你的男人不会把你逼成老妈子，更不会把你变成保姆，他在你面前有小孩子的一面，一样也会把你宠得像个小孩子。所以女人要知道，越是爱你的男人，越会把你宠成小孩。他闲暇时会陪你一起玩一起疯，一起幼稚，也会容忍你的小脾气，小心翼翼呵护你的少女心，喜欢看你笑得像个傻子一样。

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女人爱上一个男人，你得首先经过：真正的认识他、真正的了解他这样两个阶段。

认识充分、了解足够，对方的为人、性格、品质与能力，也就大多掌握得差不多了。

这样的前提之下，不管他在什么情况之下说了什么，你都还是能够根据内心对他的真正性格、你们的感情深度、他的实力的准确判断而做到有谱，才不会被对方临时所说的一些话语给误导，你们的感情发展也才会平稳、健康而顺利。

千言万语一句话：女人挑男人或与男人相处，更重要的是看他的行为，而并非听他的语言，更不要将他所说的每一句话，都当成有法律保障的条款来看待，这样才更为清醒与实际得多。

聪明的女人一旦明白他们的性格及行事规律，其实就非常容易把握及掌握其内心的变化了。

聪明女人，对男人的三句话听过就忘，傻女人总爱揪着不放，从而闹出无数的意外与纷争来。

1.同住时的山盟海誓

2.吵架时故意伤人的气话

3.为了吹牛说的大话

可是将此当成他的一种“保证”与“承诺”，然后便当了真，日后总以此当成他没有兑现诺言的理由不依不饶的话，可能真的不太明智，对方多半会恼羞成怒与你发生争执并影响到双方的感情。

Definitely Maybe

"To my darling daughter April, 'The human heart has hidden treasures, in secret kept, in silence sealed. The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures whose charms are broken if revealed.'

From your loving father "

Jane Eyre, Random House, 1943

Mind over Body. Pain over all...matter 😅

Once again, I'm in a predicament where my mind is ready to move on. But God damn it, my heart won't stop with the hurting.

我不甘心。

I know it's done. Its over. 

I've done my five stages of grief already, can I just move forward already 😑😑😑

Communication

"Communication is nothing without respect, action and agreement."

I just read that and it resonated greatly.

Cusp of Greatness

For the first time in my life... I keep getting this inkling feeling that I'm at the edge of something profoundly great.

And for days, the ghost of my past visited me in my insufficient dreams. 

It was real tripy. 

"FYOV"

Forty-year-old version, indubitably.

FYOV, FYOV

Not telling truth 

just don't make sense to me.

Holding back from who you should be.

Fund your own vision

Fill your own voice

Fuck you old vultures 

~The Forty-Year-Old Version

    (that's who i'll be)

Battlefield

This is the age of ground zero.

Anything you built will crumble to soil.

Compost, fertilizer, scraps from your past.

Peace as the illusion where tears becomes a feat.

Suicidal ideology vs Suicide

Suicidal ideology is seeming more like a coping mechanism for the uncontrollable pain that runs rampant in a person when life is out of control. Cutting is a form of trying to regain control of what couldn't be controlled.

Suicide gets called an selfish act...

But no one understands the relief that was sought after behind the act of agony; it's an individual performing a mercy kill for themselves, like a person would put a wounded animal out of their misery with a swift death.

The act was the last resort....and the thoughts were just mental relief for the pain temporarily.