Burdensome

Sometimes....

Like right now..... I just feel like my existence is excessive ...

Excessive from the very beginning....

Unplanned.
Unwanted.
Unneeded.

Every blame
Every time I felt like a punching bag
Every time I felt hurt but the response I got was "so what"..."what if I did...What you going to do about it"

That old feeling of wanting to cut myself....So I can do something about it...

我活着好累
我活着很孤单
我活得很空虚
我活着很难过
我活得很失败
我很多余。。。活得很没尊严