Trust... it shouldn't get more complicated than that...

Myself of all people firmly agrees that in a relationship, no one was born ..just to... make you happy and love you how you want to be loved. Both parties have the right to fight or flight, but in this case... take it as it, one party willing to change and tries, or just leave and call it quits.

I'm thinking to myself ... maybe who and the kind of person I'd like to be with isn't who he is... (right now? .. then I feel like maybe I'm trying to change him and I feel awful. It's like I'm forcing him to become someone else.)

I feel like I'm making him miserable, then I feel even worse because I love him so much.
And those you love are the ones that hurts you the most...
That or our relationship is killing him?
-------------------------------------------------------------------

But from all the lies, misleading things he said to prolong his lies... does make me feel like I don't know who I've been with, is dating, and wanting a future with ( just makes me feel real stupid).

Everything I do, come across, even on a Facebook game.... is revolving around him.

It's like I'm living an illusion, that makes me question my reality all over again... more or less so.... and it drives me nuts.
I need stability.
Nothing feels permanent... unless it's something I'm in control of...
So I don't feel like my life is going crazy, and that I'm lost... like my childhood.

Trust... it shouldn't get more complicated than that...