11/22/2013 --- Friday.

               Woke up oddly... first at like 930am, went back to bed. I actual got up at 1:30pm. Mustaphai had called me, so I called him back; ended up having the longest phone conversation that I've never had with him before lol. An hour and a half. Then called Jiao (Summer) since I had a miss her call her too.

Next thing I know it was 3 something almost 4pm... Mom was leaving and Dad was going to drive her out. I got an offer I to be driven to pick up my Piperlime package, so I got dress asap and went. Daddy ended up taking a route that took longer than the train ride of 30mins for me to get there lol. But today was the last day for that package, thank god I went; esp. since I didn't even know ... they would of shipped back my new boots !!

Then we went to Flushing, I ate at the cheap noodle spot in the Golden Food Court Mall. Soon as I finish placing my order... She asked me how come my boyfriend didn't come with me, long time no see and etc. But she got quiet once I told her we broke up lol. Awkward.... hehehe

I realized my ID was in my wallet, then recalled how my phone just fell out of my hoodie pocket, and then recalled I placed my ID in it too.... and all was lost... lol I was scared, panicked a bit... since I searched my jacket soon as I got off the train. I was hoping I didn't lose it on the streets, called the Fedex store back just in case and they had it, thank god !! lol It's the only ID i got right now that hasn't expired yet hehehehe

               Betty with texting me the whole time. :) Trying to give me some emotional support, even though she is stressed the hell out lol She did have some valid points, I just didn't see the realistic functions and the how to function aspects of what she was trying to tell me.
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I felt flustered and unease just messaging him on FB.
I still think I need a good cry lol which is just holding up in there. I need to talk to gather my thoughts, my emotions, and unleash the water tank that I keep feeling by my eyes. I know I haven't felt everything I need to feel yet. I'm avoiding the feeling shit.

Mom just asked me if I'm going downstairs to watch movies tonight...with him.
How harmless these questions are.... but hurt so goddamn much.