Definitely Maybe

"To my darling daughter April, 'The human heart has hidden treasures, in secret kept, in silence sealed. The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures whose charms are broken if revealed.'

From your loving father "

Jane Eyre, Random House, 1943

Mind over Body. Pain over all...matter 😅

Once again, I'm in a predicament where my mind is ready to move on. But God damn it, my heart won't stop with the hurting.

我不甘心。

I know it's done. Its over. 

I've done my five stages of grief already, can I just move forward already 😑😑😑

Communication

"Communication is nothing without respect, action and agreement."

I just read that and it resonated greatly.

Cusp of Greatness

For the first time in my life... I keep getting this inkling feeling that I'm at the edge of something profoundly great.

And for days, the ghost of my past visited me in my insufficient dreams. 

It was real tripy. 

"FYOV"

Forty-year-old version, indubitably.

FYOV, FYOV

Not telling truth 

just don't make sense to me.

Holding back from who you should be.

Fund your own vision

Fill your own voice

Fuck you old vultures 

~The Forty-Year-Old Version

    (that's who i'll be)

Battlefield

This is the age of ground zero.

Anything you built will crumble to soil.

Compost, fertilizer, scraps from your past.

Peace as the illusion where tears becomes a feat.